I originally wrote this post for Hellobee when I briefly blogged for them in 2015. Then I reposted it to my blog but I made the post private because I wasn’t ready to post about my miscarriages. When you write something and put it on the Internet, it stays there forever and I wasn’t sure if this was something I wanted out in the open for the whole world to see. But I realize that the topic of miscarriages is such an important one. It’s such a taboo topic, especially in the Asian community. I hope by sharing my story and the things I’ve learned from my miscarriages, it will help someone else who has gone through it or might go through it in the future.
Our Story- Strike 1
Hubs and I were married in 2009. We wanted to wait at least a year to enjoy being married before we really tried to have kids despite the fact that I was already 34 at that time. In the back of my mind, my biological clock was ticking but I didn’t want to rush into having a baby just because of my age.
After our first year of marriage, we started “trying” to have a baby but we didn’t get pregnant until January of 2011. You can imagine what we were feeling when we saw that “pregnant” sign on the pregnancy test. We were so excited! But I was also fearful of things going wrong. I tend to be a worrywart and have fear of the unknown. I was also scared of miscarrying but I tried to do all the right things like take my prenatal vitamins and go to all my OB appointments. Everything seemed to be progressing nicely. I had a 7 week ultrasound where I heard the heartbeat so I felt things were going well and that we would be parents in October of that year. Little did I know that just a few short week, one of the greatest heartaches of my life would happen.